I used to fucking love harder video games. I grew up with Nintendo Hard. Now, even easy games are bugging the shit out of me, and the hard games are infuriating and cause me to rage quit (looking at you Hollow Knight).
I hate when I plan a specific “fun” activity for a specific time (like firing up a new server and testing it after kids go to bed), but when the time comes to do said task, my brain goes “nah, [other thing] is more fun” and suddenly it’s 2 weeks later and the initial activity has been successfully avoided.
It’s like two parts of my brain are fighting against each other. Drives me absolutely insane.
Ha! At least your brain has the decency to recommend something else that’ll be more fun. Half the time my brain just says “nah” to whatever I was about to do without giving me any alternatives so I just sit there, for a while, thinking about other things I could do instead.
Ha! At least your brain has the decency to recommend something else that’ll be more fun.
It only happens when I plan something, like working on a specific computer or one of my cars or bikes. My scooter needs some attention (little guy fell over yesterday due to me putting it on the center stand on top of soft asphault crack sealant 🤦♂️), and I put it off because creating doomsday scenarios in Universe Sandbox until 1AM was more appealing for some reason 🙃.
To be clear: I LIKE working on my vehicles. It’s liberating.
Half the time my brain just says “nah” to whatever I was about to do without giving me any alternatives so I just sit there, for a while, thinking about other things I could do instead.
That’s usually how it goes when I get unexpected “free time”. I sit and think about all the things I could do while watching the clock tick life away…
This. I like DMing for ttrpgs, and I love drawing and painting. You’d think I’d be extatic about prepping homebrew and assets for a digitally run Savage Worlds campaign set Tamriel (or a weird homebrew mix of cyberpunk and vampire the masquerade), the truth is I’m more than just a bit burned out.
I want to start the campaign now, and I’ve had the story and characters ready to go for a month now, but prepping all those art assets has been tedious. So far I’ve done about 20+ tokens, 5+ maps, 15 character portraits, and some 10 general purpose pieces to aid narration. I got about 7 tokens left and I’m done, and I can barely get one out a day, every other day.
The worst thing is I have a very clear idea of what I want the campaign to look like and I’ve already made concessions by using RPG Engine to design my maps instead of doing it all by hand and just retouching it later. I don’t want to make any more concessions, so I’m SOL.
Can confirm. I try to avoid fun because that requires energy.
I miss having a Jacuzzi in my master bath. For some reason it made reading more enjoyable. It’s like it provided enough sensory stimulation to keep the “squirrels” occupied that I could soak in it and read a book without feeling bored. I love to read but I’ve done very little of it since I sold that house 5 years ago.
You might have the same kind of luck with a hammock or rocking chair. Some kind of tactile experience for you while you read.
I like the treadmill or walking outside.
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Fun? What is fun?
Guilt and Obligation that’s all there is.
Is that what that is? shiiiiittt…
Is this an adhd thing or just a depression thing?
I definitely have this. It’s worse when I say I’m going to start a project like making a painting or something.
Felt this in my chest…had a window of my life where things were so rough I was basically ordered by my therapist to take seek medical treatment for both, and even with treatment existing felt like a chore…couldn’t even will myself to look at memes when I woke up. Basically just laid in bed with my eyes closed for half the day for a while. Getting to the point where I could properly take care of myself again was very much a recovery process.
I was incredibly lucky that I had just started a new job when that happened and was full remote for the first few months, so a lot of that time was just supposed to be spent passively learning.
The ADHD/depression combo can be an insidiously detrimental co-morbidity, peeps. If there’s even a hint of that happening to you, ask for help. I had no clue that’s what was happening to me and was lucky that I was in therapy already when everything went down, because my doctor caught it right away.
