HEXN3T

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Joined 3 years ago
Cake day: June 15th, 2023
  • HEXN3TtoFemcel Memes•Never reveal your secrets on the first date :3English
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    15 days ago

    There is one headmate in my system that communicates only through vocalisations, touch, movement and beyond, and pretty much just is an animal. The majority can communicate through all these ways as well–usually when emotions are too strong. My excited sea lion decided to call getting really excited “waggling”, which is combined tail wagging and wiggling. I taught a specific other friend about this as well (turned out to be a therian), and they now do it uncontrollably. They eventually mentioned they used to start shaking when they were really excited, which resolved as soon as they started wiggling instead. Form of stimming, in fact. All therians (all plural as well) in my sphere naturally respond to each other in ways like this. Hell, even animals themselves have systems which I’ll adapt to (I’ve been called a dog whisperer a lot).

    There is one particular exception regarding animal identity–Vaida, my manic/psychotic state. She is a “Saturnian”–a cosmic being. She’s essentially a liquid form. It’s not unique to her, as it seems every manic/psychotic state I’ve seen seems to describe a similar fundamental form–boundless, chaotic, free from the confines of the defined.

    I have executive control over all integrated parts of my system (two are not yet fully cooperative). I can become plural or singlet as needed. In all states, I can forcibly front, or headmates may front naturally, and indeed take control from each other for any variety of reasons (they like to playfully bash each other, and do tend to act like personified versions of their species and function). Splitting and merging may even be done as an almost trivial task, though that’s obviously likely to lead to issues when done outside of warranted reason–even if it’s all technically me, done by my consent.

    I am conscious just as much as we are conscious. It’s quite an elaborately diversified and highly structured system.

  • HEXN3TtoFemcel Memes•Never reveal your secrets on the first date :3English
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    18 days ago

    On a nerdy note, I discovered that DID is literally just a normal person but with depersonalisation, derealisation and amnesia between different brain regions, and things like Internal Family Systems or certain types of OSDD are just different versions of the same underlying mechanics.

    Everyone is a system. This is also why certain people with otherkin identities sometimes report multiple forms. The parts are the whole is the parts.

    I personally have 18 alters (mostly animal forms), plus an executive controller and a singlet, as if running a human as software on hardware. Certain behaviours and relations seen with alters reflect the underlying function of personality disorders and neurological issues (I have BPD because of course, and also OCPD). You can talk to any side of me you wish, and I can talk to any part of myself from any part of myself. Very deep and interesting psychology stuff–it’s a field of research for me.