「黃家駒 Wong Ka Kui」

His last question before getting banned was: “AITAH if I don’t feel anything about my best friend’s dying child?” 💀

Lemmy told me that I’d get kidnapped by ICE the moment a non-white person stepped outside…

I went to a post office in a predominently white neighborhood to apply for a passport (earliest available appointment cuz cities are always filled), the guy working at the post office was a brown guy with an “Indian Accent” (which I did not expect to be working in a white neighbood btw).

I’m ethnically Chinese and did not get harassed by anyone… Lemmy would have you believe there are lynch mobs and white-hooded KKK people trying to shoot you on sight, did not happen…

Also none of my family had been harassed by ICE yet… I heard some relatives and friends of my parent’s social circle cross the border just fine… my aunts be going on vacations and cruises… (my parents so jealous of their wealth and keep telling me “why can’t you be like them” 😭)

That being said, maybe me being Chinese and not Hispanic/Latino made the risks lower, not trying to invalidate the fears that other more vulnerable communities might face.

THE POLICE BOMBED A RESIDENTIAL NEIGHBORHOOD!

Not me but:

Brooo omg my older brother SLEPT in the bathroom of a warehouse for TWO HOURS 🤣

Like dude hid in a stall and just… wait how the fuck can you even sleep in the position?

He never got caught lol

My mom was like: “They’re gonna catch you slacking and then drag you out jn front of everyone to humiliate you”

Mom told me that back in China, they micromanage every employee and you could never get away with being “afk” for 2 hours lmfao…

But is a big place in that warehouse so its hard to notice someone gone for 2 hours…

Then they started doing bathroom signout sheets… like wtf… are we still in K-12 school??? (it’s a unionized place too not sure whats going on now lol)

my former instance: sh.itjust.works decided to become sh.it doesn’t fucking.works

So I said: “You know what, fuck this, I’m out”

So I’m here in piefed…

Kinda took a 2 day break from Fediverse while doing the troubleshooting and making new account and stuff…

Felt less depressed from all the doomerism here, but also felt a lot more “empty” (idk how to describe it…)

IRL: idk its been a week since mom went to visit China, for like a whole month…

As I said before, the house feels so quiet and empty and its depressing…

I mean I don’t get jumpscared/anxious by my mom’s voice… but its like putting out the campfire when you feel the fire was getting too hot, then now the fire is gone and you feel freezing instead…

but emotionally… know what I mean?

Kinda feeling very suicidal for some reason…

I mean I think I’m just gonna never make friends…

The gods… universe… or whatever… is just making me suffer…

When my parents die, I’m gonna have no one…

Life seems so sad… idk why…

Like what’s the point? everything dies…

How can you even trust anyone in the world? Friends? Romantic relationships?

How do you even feel safe to make connections when at anytime, people can betray you?

You never know what someone’s motives are…

Oh fuck I did it again… causal conversation became a rant… sorry… but I don’t feel like deleting the comment so I’m just gon a comment it lol

I heard that antidepressants can ironically make you more suicidal since you get more energetic… I wonder if this is that…

Would be so awkward if I die from antidepressants that’s supposed to make me less depressed and less suicidal in the first place…