Thank you so much for sharing this. I have felt a bit disconnected from the idea of doing it primarily for the physical changes (not that I mind those, of course). I have basically given this explanation to my relatives about why I am undertaking this, and it is validating to see people who have had the same experience. My surroundings do not express this as deeply as I do, as those people seem to be focused more on the appearance side of things. While I just do not deeply care that much.
I have felt like something was deeply wrong with me, and this explanation resonates. I just have been a whole lot happier since starting HRT. I stopped feeling like a ticking time bomb, that can not handle my social interactions, and I just feel right in the world. Puberty made me disconnected from myself and the world, I remembered crying to songs that sang about being disillusioned with my own self and my body. But I never really wanted it to hit, I knew for a while, but just felt like it would take a lot and that I wouldn’t be strong enough. But here I am, and it wasn’t as hard as I imagined after all.





As long as you can make a choice it is liberation. “Freedom is the capacity to make choices, oppression the inability to make choices”.
It’s basically diluting the politics from feminism and emphasizing choice over structural change. It sidesteps the fact that a liberty to make personal choices is in a privilege and needs structural change. That “choosing” to be a housewife is not a possible option for most people for example. As well that people who aren’t white nor/or cis nor/or straight do often miss access to the same infrastructure in order to get to the same place as their cis/straight/white counterparts.
I don’t know if I worded this well, but I tried my best.