had a job interview. 2 large group exercises to assess team dynamics, then I interviewed for 2 different roles. Everyone there was nice, but:

  1. can’t stop feeling bad for the one interview that i definitely floundered. The first one seemed to go well but given how much i tripped over my words for the second one, it makes me think the first one went badly? Also got the sense

  2. I can’t trust people being nice to me. It makes it feel like a big prank is being played on me and my entire reality is simulated / organised for some reason.

its kind of tough to be in one hall surrounded by other candidates competing for the same positions as you. Man… But maybe that’s better and I just have no stamina for job interviews.

I need to apply for ~500 more jobs this summer, just in case, but it leaves me really drained.

  • TheReturnOfPEB@reddthat.comEnglish
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    2 days ago

    That is more than just “meeting people” so give some credit where it is due. Just getting an interview these days is a win. Those are emotionally draining wins. And congrats for taking them on in this current economy.

    And I do recognize when I hear impostor syndrome. It is a good thing to keep in mind for some more emotional room to take up and not feel badly about doing it.

    And remember this is your chance to INTERVIEW THEM. Ask them the tough questions about workplace shite. Ask them when the last time a worker’s suggestion for change was taken and implemented.

    You must interview them.

  • PumaStoleMyBluff@lemmy.worldEnglish
    3·
    2 days ago

    If this is a situation you’ll be facing more often, can you plan something afterwards that’s completely unrelated and just good for yourself? Can be literally anything, a donut, a drink with a friend but you don’t talk about the interview, a bike ride, yoga in a park, a 3 hour gaming session. Something to push the interview completely out of your mind, because realistically it’s not that helpful to fret over how it went immediately afterwards.

  • MelonYellow@lemmy.caEnglish
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    2 days ago

    Nah, that’s a normal feeling towards job interviews I think lol. Especially the interviews where it’s a panel vs. you. Everybody gets anxious to some extent. And it doesn’t go away just because you’ve been doing this for decades. Take it easy, one at a time. Don’t sweat it.

  • Zephyr@sh.itjust.worksEnglish
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    2 days ago

    I don’t want to discredit anything you’re feeling but if you can manage it’s nice or freeing to be unattached from the outcome of a moment, without desire for this or that to happen or not happen and accepting whatever ends up actually becomes reality. That’s not to say you come off disinterested or bored towards whoever you’re interacting with, but maybe attached to the moment the same way you might be to a show you enjoy watching.