As I’m sure is the case for a lot of trans folks, I know the feeling roiling in your head all too well. You don’t know what your future is going to look like, but you know it’s not going to be the sameas how you’ve been living. Something has fundamentally shifted in your understanding of yourself, and it’s exciting and terrifying. In case nobody has mentioned it to you yet, the Gender dysphoria bible is something you’ll probably want to read even if you decide transitioning isn’t for you. It’s got a LOT of useful information and helped me make an informed decision and have an idea of what I wanted for me. Wishing you the best in the future, whatever it holds for you!

I was mainly hoping it would help my libido, but it sadly hasn’t done that yet. Estradiol didn’t really start effecting me for about 3 weeks.

A couple reddit threads, but other than that, no. The timing just seems too perfect to be coincidental.

I wouldn’t say my boobs definitely are bigger in the last week, but I’m definitely noticing their size being in the boob range than slightly overweight guy range more, so it might just be my brain doing brain things. In so far as sleep habits, my wife saw a sleep specialist a while back and I’ve incorporated a lot of thing she was told to do into my routine, like getting up if I cant sleep. I’ve been able to get back to sleep eventually every night except last night when I felt on the edge of sleep the whole night. I just really don’t want to find out the progesterone is the source of my insomnia before I get to see any real benefit from it

I’ve only been crocheting for about a month, so my wife is mad it turned out so well lol

It’s not wrong side out, the yarn was just really grippy with itself and this is how the stiches turned out looking

At least english doesn’t assign feminine or masculine to every fucking word like french! But, yeah, shit that has no business being aligned to a gender being gendered is out of hand.

Cute! I love the shark!

I am also in the “hopefully on the way to passing” stage of transitioning, and the vast majority of stares I get are from older white women. Rarely is it a non white woman, and even rarely is it a man, exlusively white men, and all of them are exclusively 50+. It’s fun to smile brightly, toss my hair, kiss my wife, and watch for their reaction 😆

I gotta get back into da jong. Great times to be had

My wife and I are pathetically codependent, and when I had my moment of realization that put me into a week of questioning, I stewed on it for the evening, and told her what had happened in the morning, and what was on my mind. She spiraled for a week, which made me spiral, thinking it was going to end our marriage, and she asked me regularly if I had figured it out yet. I wasn’t sure yet, but I kept an open dialogue the whole time because I felt she deserved to know whatever she could. I eventually figured out that I definitely was trans while talking to her, and told her soon as I did. There was some crying, lots of stressing about the future, but that open dialogue made a big difference I feel. We’re still together, happier than before I’d say because I’m not subconsciously suppressing my gender, and she gets to share girl things with me now, but since I started HRT, she equates living with me to living with a teenage girl 🤣

My advice is to be open about it with your girlfriend, but this is coming from someone who’s relationship worked out after starting transitioning. You got this!

All I know about taylor dunns I learned from William Osman

Also a good option! If you can find them, maybe try looking for one with a deeper neckline to keep wardrobe options open. I also started out with just sports bras and an unforseen consequence was I couldn’t wear a v neck without my bra showing!

I sometimes have to squeeze through tight gaps for work, and one time my boobs (with breast forms) got caught, and I had to force them through with my hands, and my boss started quoting fight club lol

If you happen to have a costco membership, or know someone who can order for you there are some wire free bras from there that come in a 2 pack that’s cheaper than most of the bras I’ve looked at in stores. The brand is buffalo, and they’re pretty lightly padded and don’t have much form, and combined with no underwire means they will fit a wide range of boob sizes and should continue to fit as your boobs grow in. I wear them with or without my breast forms, which is a difference of an A/B cup to D/DD. I’m bad at estimating my cup size because my chest is very broad 😋

I am 5 ish months in. I started at 2 mg, then bumped to 4mg and now 6mg oral estradiol and 50 mg of oral cyproterone for the last 2 months because there’s a spironolactone shortage plaguing where I live. Before switching, I was on 200mg of spironolactone.

Breast growth started 2-3 weeks in with a lump behind each nipple which have steadily grown to be ~7cm across along with very minimal fat collection so I’m a little bit jiggly with slightly larger areolas and nipples which are leading the way away from my ribcage giving me cones for boobs. The things I never see mentioned about breast growth are the itchiness that comes with increased bloodflow (it’s nearly painful sometimes, like a horrendous mosquito bite) and the fluids. I was playing with my nipples one day early on, gauging the size of the lumps behind my nipples, and drops of clear fluid came out of my nipple and scared the shit out of me! Turns out, that’s totally normal unless it starts coming out on its own and is a result of the development of milk ducts, but it would have been really nice to know beforehand. That particular effect stopped after about 3 weeks of monitoring it.

My emotional range spiked to be insanely wide when I started for about a week, then shrunk back down to what it was before, then another spike about 2-3 weeks after each time I upped my dose, and this time it seems to be staying mostly open. If I had to give it a number, I’d say I can feel about 250% more than before, which sucks when a dysphoric low hits me, but it’s totally worth it when I go into an instoppable giggle fit, or get aroused by a spicy scene in my book, or have my heart melt when one of my niblings does something adorable.

My relationship with sex has been… weird. Initially, when I was on spiro, erections ceased to exist. I could get it up for a few minutes if I found something particularly arousing, but that was it. Sex with my wife dropped from 3-4 times a month to maybe once every other month. Cyproterone has let some of that come back, random boners haven’t made a comeback, thank god, but my penis is far more sensitive than it once was. My wife and I have tried to have sex a couple times recently, but insertion is just too much for me to handle, and sex has ended up with us grinding on a vibrator between us. Another thing I never saw anyone write about was the difference between boy horny and girl horny. There was one day when my SIL was staying with my wife and I in our one bedroom apartment, so sex was off the table, but I felt a need to jump on my wife and ride her to the stars, but so far as I could tell, I wasn’t horny. Some conversations online later, and I realized I was horny, it was just a very different kind of horny and I had no way to identify it. One person described boy horny as a hunger and girl horny as appreciating fine art, but for me it’s a lot more subtle. More like boy horny is a hunger to get off, and girl horny is a desire to enjoy the sex part of sex, not just the orgasm with someone. I talked to a friend of mine about it, and she hasn’t really experienced any difference in how she gets aroused, and she’s about 5 months ahead of me on HRT.

I haven’t really noticed any size difference in my genitals, but tucking has gotten a lot easier with practice and trial and error to find what panties/gaffs work for me. Period panties are great for smoothing things out, and have a wide gusset to hold everything in place, but they don’t let sweat breathe, and I find an extra pair of my everyday panties on top of them are necessary to keep them from slipping and letting things out.

I already had a pretty nice butt, but my wife and I have noticed it’s a little fuller and getting more dumptrucky in the last few weeks. My thighs are following suit, getting a little thicker and more jiggly, but my hips have not gotten any extra on them, so I’m still shaped like a tube from the front.

Muscle atrophy is a bitch! I work in trades, so moving heavy things (50+ lbs) is expected, and I’ve started noticing carrying an empty ikea cabinet across the room absolutely gasses me. I don’t know if it’s because of the rate or the overall amount I’ve lost, but my butt, thighs and shoulders get sore totally at random like I ran a 10k with no prep the day before. I play ultimate frisbee, so muscle soreness like that is very familiar to me and it feels identical.

Temperature regulation is also weird. I used to be comfortable in slightly lower temps and wasn’t bothered when the weather was -30C, but now -10C is horrible! There was a month or so when my wife would sleep half covered by our comforter, and I would have the comforter and a doubled over fleece blanket on top of me and a heated throw under me on full blast to barely be comfortable in bed. I’m not that bad now, sleeping with just the comforter again, but I still prefer it warmer than my wife, when I used to be the one who wanted to set the temperature a bit lower.

That’s my experience so far, and I’m going to ask my doctor about progesterone next time I see him, so hopefully bigger boobs soon.🤞Wow this was a long comment!

My wife says living with me during second puberty is like living with a teenage girl lol

When I started taking E, my breasts started developing about 3 weeks in and by about 2 months, I had some solid tissue behind my nipples which I would squeeze and feel around to gauge how much it had grown. This was not the surprising part. What shocked the ever loving crap out of me was the fact I had fluid coming from my nipples! I did some reading on it and apparently it’s because milk ducts were forming, but nobody warned me my tits would leak!

I think the main reason I’m getting so much pain from it is because of the rate I’m losing muscle. I wasn’t ripped as a guy, but I lift appliances regularly at work, so my thighs and glutes were toned as hell if not bulky.

Only reason I went with oral over injections is because I can’t get it local, so it would still be covered by public heathcare, but I’d have to pay shipping, and I don’t with pills. Always comes down to money with people doesn’t it 😠

I do oral E and the changes came on hard and fast for me. Libido tanked amost instantly, and when I finally experienced girl horny, it was so foreign, I didn’t eve realize I was horny 😆. I’m about 5 months in, and I’m starting to go out without my breast forms because my boobs are getting big enough to make my bras too tight with them. I’ve upped my dose twice from 2mg to 4 and then to 6 about a couple weeks ago and each increase has come with a massive emotional spike that lasted a few days. The only other change I’ve noticed that I’m definitley not imagining is muscle atrophy. Every week or two my thighs or shoulders will start screaming like I ran a 10k with no prep, but I’m just sitting around reading 😭