this is gonna be a short one, trust me! >o< (im trustworthy, see my pfp waving to you… yes its waving!!!)
there is no content warning, this is all child-friendly content.

i - wow. i was playing a game to get my mind off of things. (playing osu… a game which needs quite the amount of realtime attention)

but then i thought of my crush a smol bit. not much, nothing spicy, nothing special, literally just us and another friend sitting and having tea.

but then!!! evil and selfish and uncontrollable as my thoughts are - i imagined them asking me something!!! >o< aaaa ohgosh.

wasnt even anything big, wasnt even like - exciting or anything. but!

my - (this sounds weird) my tummy and pelvis started like - bubbling and buzzing like crazy. like crazy. like - crazy.

its like roller coaster riding but only the part where u go straight down but without the gut-wrenching feeling and more positive and this might still be an understatement honestly.

i lost the level because i was pulling my hands off of the keyboard as i was - involuntarily squirming back and forth on the chair, moving away from the desk… this really does sound weird.

like - i had to actively distract myself to get it to stop. it wasnt a horny thing, it was very different.

(for anyone caring: am on hrt for 2 months)

wowie zowie. anyway, am i allowed to post stuff like this here, or is this maybe not the right place?

also, i hope u have a lovely day <3

  • strawberry_enjoyer42English
    11·
    8 days ago

    I’d squirm when my ex complimented me. The tingling sounds familiar… not sure why it happens? It doesn’t seem to connect to any emotions.

    …Maybe I need to ask my doctor about it.

    • maria [she/her]OPEnglish
      7·
      7 days ago

      aaaa this sounds weird but i got it just from reading ur comment again---- umm i dont think u need to see a doctor, since this appears to just be a thing -
      besides of course if u wanna get rid of those mental connections, in which case… im not stoppting u!!! <3

    • SuperNovaStarEnglish
      6·
      7 days ago

      I mean you can ask your doctor about it if you want, but it sounds pretty normal to me. Never heard of having “butterflies in your stomach”?

      • NullizaEnglish
        3·
        2 days ago

        Wait, thats an actual feeling? Like physical? Im only 3 months since cracking my egg and havent started HRT yet. But its reading things like this that make me realize how disassociated ive really been from myself all this time…

        • SuperNovaStarEnglish
          2·
          2 days ago

          Yeah! It can be kind of overwhelming, actually, but I wouldn’t trade it for anything

      • strawberry_enjoyer42English
        2·
        7 days ago

        OHHHH THAT’S WHAT THAT MEANS!

        Thanks for saving me the embarrassment of asking my doctor about butterflies in my stomach lol

      • maria [she/her]OPEnglish
        7·
        7 days ago

        but like - but like they are SO much stronger than what i thought butterflies meant before… anyway, heyhi dear SuperNovaStar.