I feel like I started too late. There’s no hope for me of ever passing… I’m so freaking dysphoric

  • Gigdragon@lemmy.world
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    7 天前

    Sister-doppleganger jumpscare. You look SHOCKINGLY close to my sister Crystal.

    Also, if this is Crystal. Mean. This is Talon. I will remember this, no more enchiladas for you.

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      You have a sister? I’m so jealous!

      I only have a younger brother. He’s sweet tho.

      So, unfortunately not Christal. Also, new account.

  • HopeOfTheGunblade
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    7 天前

    The dysphoria lies. These ones started older than you appear to be now and are doing fine.

  • chloeboehnchen (she/her)
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    8 天前

    Thats the dysphoria talking. A) you already look pretty Passing B) in your other post you said you’ve only been HRT for 5,5 months? Give it time. I promise you it will be worth it.

    I had the same type of mid-HRT dysphoria were I thought I would never pass. And just a few months later I couldn’t boymode anymore since I was already passing too well. It will happen for your too. Im 31 btw. Dont know how old you are but you look younger than that. “Too late” is a dirty lie the dysphoria tells you. Dont believe it.

    • McUberStein@lemmy.zipOP
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      8 天前

      I’m 20. Thank you for the kind words 🩷 It’s just really hard to stay positive sometimes

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        8 天前

        Girl my egg hadn’t even cracked at 20. Give yourself some time!

        Also you look more fem than you think you do!

        The best thing I ever did for my mental health was making some irl friends. Humans are social animals, you’ll feel so much better if you have a good community around you

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        8 天前

        I agree with everything Chloe said. HRT is working super well for you. I know it’s hard but we can see it’s working on the picture and it’ll keep working.

        And you’re young, I started at 31 and I pass, even on the days were I just crawl out of the house no makeup or anything.

        When I came out, I was worried of being too old, and then I saw other trans people that started in their 50s or 60s and were passing peeling perfectly. I remember looking at this woman’s selfie and thinking: “that’s just an older woman”. No clocking, or anything. It’s never too late.

      • Brooke (She/Her)
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        8 天前

        20? I started hrt at 32. Girl if youre too late, then im fucked 😂

        I dont think you need to worry. Youre going to look plenty fem (you already do), just takes time. Its puberty after all, youll grow into it ❤️

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        8 天前

        my egg didn’t even begin to hatch until i was 31.

        it warms my heart to a fierce degree to see others realize what i was too stupid to when i was 14.

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    8 天前

    (Please take this kindly.)

    I’m truly, honestly not sure whether this is a troll/bait post or just someone with severe confidence issues. But I’ll assume the latter until proven otherwise. You would hardly be the first passing trans gal that’s convinced themselves they’re hopeless. Gender dysphoria is a bitch like that.

    Girl, at least from what I can tell in this photo, you already pass. If you find yourself not passing in public, there are a few possibilities. It might be something that we can’t see in a front-facing photo, but can be seen in side profile. It might be your voice. It might be mannerisms. But even if you’re getting read male in public, it’s no reason to doom. If it’s voice or mannerisms, well you can change those. If it’s side profile, that does require FFS to change, but that hardly means you’re doomed.

    But really, from the photo, I would say it’s mostly in your head. If you hadn’t told me you were trans, I wouldn’t have known.

    • McUberStein@lemmy.zipOP
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      8 天前

      I swear this isn’t a troll. I truly do have severe confidence issues along with terrible anxiety.

      This is honestly just a good-ish photo and I’m definitely not passing. I still boymode in public for that reason.

      It’s really hard to get out of my head. My bf keeps complimenting me, so do my friends, but it’s way too easy to dismiss them. I’m sorry this post seemed like a troll.

      I will need FFS for my profile: mainly my forehead. However, reading all of these comments, I’m getting slightly more hopeful. Thank you, kind stranger 🩷

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        8 天前

        Do you actually know if you pass or not? Have you tried girl moding? It might surprise you if you haven’t.

        And sorry, I didn’t mean to accuse you of anything. I definitely get the confidence issues. I’ve dealt with them myself.

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          8 天前

          I have tried girl moding, just in like the worst way possible. I go outside with my bf after dark in girlmode quite often, and even then, I’m really anxious about people staring.
          Even without the dysphoria, my anxiety and low self-confidence are killing me…
          I’m already taking pills for that, but they’re not really helping much. Prog kinda helps with the anxiety though. I should really force myself to get out there more…

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            6 天前

            When you think people are watching you start acting weird, that causes people to watch. People might be looking or even watching tor any number of reasons. Maybe you don’t pass. Maybe you’re attractive to them. Maybe you look like someone they know. Maybe you look really nervous and they don’t know why.

            As kindly as I can say this, it’s going to be scary until you’ve done it enough to be comfortable. Do it scared. Accept that it’s not the end of the world if someone you’ll never speak to thinks you’re trans unless it’s actively a dangerous place to be openly trans.

            Also passing isn’t binary. I’ve had coworkers comment on me being trans at workplaces where other coworkers make remarks about my menstruation.

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        8 天前

        You look like a girl to me. My husband’s cousins both have a body profile similar to yours, so I can say with confidence you have a fem bod.

        Maybe if you’re getting tagged as a boy still, it’s your voice? Speech classes might help.

        • McUberStein@lemmy.zipOP
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          8 天前

          I would say it’s less my voice and more me boymoding…

          But yeah, I’m working on my voice with a professional. Should help a ton.

          Thank you

          • Whats_your_reasoning@lemmy.world
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            7 天前

            Are you switching between two different accounts in this thread? It’s a bit confusing, though I get it if you have alts - I just want to be sure nobody’s hijacking your post.

            • AnxiousMiisha
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              7 天前

              I am. I’m abandoning my old account (Peanut/McUberStein) and using my new one (this one) with my new name.

              Sorry for the confusion. I don’t know why I thought making posts on my old account first and making a new account after was a good idea 😂.

              So, yeah. This is my new one.

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    8 天前

    Sorry if a cis male isn’t supposed to comment here, but I was genuinely curious as to what you meant by “I’m screwed,” because I didn’t think you could possibly mean you didn’t look femine (passing?) because you do.

    I think you look great and I hope you feel that about yourself soon, too!

    Again, I’m sorry if I’m not welcome here, not using the correct terminology, or have completely missed the point of this post.

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    8 天前

    omg you’re really pretty! honestly, you already do pass; like, you pass better than some cis women i know.

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    8 天前

    Tell you truth, I read the title of this post, clicked the image, thought “huh, why is she screwed?” and tried to find the problem in the image. Then I read the community name and the rest of your post.

    You’re passing just fine.

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    8 天前

    holyholyfuck no no no you’re so pretty you’re so pass TwT

    the brain goblins are in your head u got this

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    8 天前

    you look fine girl don’t sweat it :) 5.5 months is also barely any time in hrt standards, its a years long journey and it won’t do the heavy lifting for you! gotta work on your confidence and outward expression yourself. hrt just makes it a little easier in my experience

    pro tip: get bangs 😉

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    8 天前

    HRT effects take place over a very long period of time. Give yourself a chance. I know that you want to go from point A to point E but you have to give yourself time to get there.

    Nurture yourself. Work on your mental health, take good care of yourself physically. Like you will get the best results of HRT if you are in the best place otherwise to receive them. Its unfortunately not something you can rush. You must gradually work towards it. If passing really really matters to you then work on your mannerisms, voice train, practice with makeup, develop your fashion sensibilities and invest time in your presentation. All those things take time to develop too, and its also totally valid to not bother with any of it. I am a very conventionally feminine woman and those things have mattered to me so I have worked a lot on them. It all takes time.

    And to echo statements in other comments, you’re never too late to transition. You look really pretty and you will absolutely have great results with time. Try your best to be patient with yourself.

    • McUberStein@lemmy.zipOP
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      8 天前

      You’re right. And I’m guilty of neglecting my mental health, especially in the past couple of weeks.

      It’s really hard sometimes, but I should at least try to remember the changes that already are instead of freaking out about other things. It really does just take a long time.

      Thank you for the kind words 🩷

      Also, point E? That’s really funny 😂

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    8 天前

    Girly pop: chat its so joever sends most pretty girly girl photo ever

    Ok but you don’t look old? Plus you look really pretty?? Also who cares what you look like/pass or not, you’re a beautiful woman and that’s that??? Also those bottoms fucn rock where you get them???

    Transitioning isn’t an over night process it takes years not just for physically but also mentally. It takes time to allow yourself to pass your own expectations of what it means to be a woman. Overall you gotta look forward towards the expectation of being yourself, cuz there’s no other woman like ya in the world.

    Hope we worded that right lol

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        Aaaa wet souls we should probably peruse vibesVinted more often 🥺

        Edited: FUCKING HATE IOS AUTOCORECT AAAAAAAA WERE SO SORRY AAAAAAAAAAAA 😭

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          I’ve been called many things in my life, but a wet soul is not one of them. I don’t know how to feel about that 😭

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            WERE GONNA SMASH OUR PHONE WERE SO SORRY AAAAAAAAAAAA

            Was supposed to say “we should probably peruse vinted more often” FUCKING HATE IOS 😭

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    7 天前

    Didn’t even register for one millisecond that you are mtf as I was scrolling by. I’d say you pass easily. Don’t be so hard on yourself.

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    ???

    Are you screwed? You look fantastic and you’ve barely even started HRT.